This isn't all bad. I kept those characters as my heroes for a reason. They were good role models, had great power and used it wisely. They were able to help me through some hard times. But all of that was just in my head. Sure they represented good things, i saw them act it out on tv. But how did they ever help me?
I could get stuck in a sticky situation and think what would superman do. Or be debating doing something bad, but then remember that Santa is watching me so i better not. And that is how i have been reduced to following God. I read his book and wonder what Jesus, Paul or David would do in my shoes. Or I avoid things because i figure God wouldn't like them. All the time ignoring the fact that God is not just some magical man sitting on a cloud watching down on me. He's not a super hero that i only know of because i read about Him or watch Him on tv. He is here and now. Open for interaction. I can watch him in person and stop worrying about what he would do, i can find out what he is doing.
Christ is interactive. And far more so than any Spider-Man video game. So how can i fall back to treating Him as an idea? Why do i have the soft focus portrait of Him so ingrained in my mind? If that is the way that i treat God, i might as well be following Superman. I have the same relationship with both of them after all. And they both stand for the same thing.
How have i let myself fall back into this mindset, and how do i escape from it? Reading the Bible has become watching tv and prayer is like playing with action figures. There is more. I know it, and have seen it. Yet i don't chase after it.
That's just kinda gross.
